I had no idea what to expect with this CR, a lot of it was really abrupt and things just kind of happened while I was writing? Like, we'd do a thread and I would never be sure where it would lead. I think this is the sort of CR that would have benefited from a long term opportunity to grow -- although it's not bad in the slightest; on the contrary, I was delighted with every turn. But it was slow and rocky and odd, comprised of widely differing ideals and two immovable people. Who knows if they ever would have agreed. While Barnham was slowly ripping apart due to his self-imposed belief that it was his duty to murder the whole fucking town, Chane had started to do something similar with far less internal complications -- started and stopped, unfortunately, after her murder. If this was a game where the goal was to kill, she would have done so as painlessly as possible for the killed and never batted an eyelash. As far as Chane's concerned, it should have been her.
Because Barnham set himself up to be hurt, over and over, and then continually seemed surprised when it happened. From her point of view, that was likely the most foolish thing he did. He kept opening his room to people and then got upset when his roommates died. He made out with Sara, entered something more-than-friendship-esque with her, and then acted betrayed and hurt when it came out she had killed Russell. From Chane's perspective, Barnham brought all this on himself. He failed to keep perspective on what the game meant, despite Chane herself trying to tell him numerous times.
From her point of view, he refused to listen. He repeated the same actions over and over, expecting a different result. You can't talk to or help a person like that. So, she gave up. And then the letter happened. :D I didn't expect her to be correct but she was, in the end. He was absolutely the architect of his own fucking downfall.
As far as Chane's concerned, it hadn't needed to be Barnham. I think she's still a little scornful of him in that sense. What he considers his necessary duty, she considers martyring, and in the least complimentary sense. Idiots martyr. Smart people know how to find the balance between taking care of the people around them and knowing when to step back and focus on their own health and well-being. (Hence, giving up! Hence, the savage letter.)
In our last thread, when she shoved him, it had been in direct response to him greeting her with, "Madam Walken, what can I do for you?" BECAUSE. STOP. She had wanted him to stop behaving in such a subservient manner, and also wanted to impress upon him how weak the whole ordeal had left him. If she could have shouted instead, she might have! Alas.
With all that said, she doesn't hate Barnham. Chane doesn't really hate anyone. It's not in her emotional range, much in the same way as she's not petty and doesn't hold grudges. In terms of negative emotions, she stops at disinterest. When people become enemies, it's only for practical reasons. She made her last request of him because she's aware that he deserves happiness as much as anyone else, possibly more so after what the game put him through -- even if she thinks he practically begged for that level of trauma and hardship.
Take care of yourself, Barnham. Take a nap, eat some fruit, find a beach for you and Sara to hold hands on. X(
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I had no idea what to expect with this CR, a lot of it was really abrupt and things just kind of happened while I was writing? Like, we'd do a thread and I would never be sure where it would lead. I think this is the sort of CR that would have benefited from a long term opportunity to grow -- although it's not bad in the slightest; on the contrary, I was delighted with every turn. But it was slow and rocky and odd, comprised of widely differing ideals and two immovable people. Who knows if they ever would have agreed. While Barnham was slowly ripping apart due to his self-imposed belief that it was his duty to murder the whole fucking town, Chane had started to do something similar with far less internal complications -- started and stopped, unfortunately, after her murder. If this was a game where the goal was to kill, she would have done so as painlessly as possible for the killed and never batted an eyelash. As far as Chane's concerned, it should have been her.
Because Barnham set himself up to be hurt, over and over, and then continually seemed surprised when it happened. From her point of view, that was likely the most foolish thing he did. He kept opening his room to people and then got upset when his roommates died. He made out with Sara, entered something more-than-friendship-esque with her, and then acted betrayed and hurt when it came out she had killed Russell. From Chane's perspective, Barnham brought all this on himself. He failed to keep perspective on what the game meant, despite Chane herself trying to tell him numerous times.
From her point of view, he refused to listen. He repeated the same actions over and over, expecting a different result. You can't talk to or help a person like that. So, she gave up. And then the letter happened. :D I didn't expect her to be correct but she was, in the end. He was absolutely the architect of his own fucking downfall.
As far as Chane's concerned, it hadn't needed to be Barnham. I think she's still a little scornful of him in that sense. What he considers his necessary duty, she considers martyring, and in the least complimentary sense. Idiots martyr. Smart people know how to find the balance between taking care of the people around them and knowing when to step back and focus on their own health and well-being. (Hence, giving up! Hence, the savage letter.)
In our last thread, when she shoved him, it had been in direct response to him greeting her with, "Madam Walken, what can I do for you?" BECAUSE. STOP. She had wanted him to stop behaving in such a subservient manner, and also wanted to impress upon him how weak the whole ordeal had left him. If she could have shouted instead, she might have! Alas.
With all that said, she doesn't hate Barnham. Chane doesn't really hate anyone. It's not in her emotional range, much in the same way as she's not petty and doesn't hold grudges. In terms of negative emotions, she stops at disinterest. When people become enemies, it's only for practical reasons. She made her last request of him because she's aware that he deserves happiness as much as anyone else, possibly more so after what the game put him through -- even if she thinks he practically begged for that level of trauma and hardship.
Take care of yourself, Barnham. Take a nap, eat some fruit, find a beach for you and Sara to hold hands on. X(