i'm gonna fite you in the pit first because here you are, first on my list, jfc
ANYWAY.
Barnham and Noct......
I guess I'll start with--Noct is the absolute last person Barnham would have told the win condition to without killing him after aside from like... Ash or Hannibal. Because Noctis is the person that Barnham wanted to protect most of all from that. From the moment they met, Noct was impressing Barnham with his strong sense of morals and beliefs, and that only got all the more impressive to him when he realized that Noct was to be a king. Because Barnham has seen negative, corrupt people in power firsthand. He was thrown into jail for treason for trying to find the truth, and when he heard Noct talk about everything he believed in... it gave Barnham hope.
It gave him hope for a world that he didn't even have a part in, which was a strange feeling as it was, but it truly did. He hoped for Noct, and Noct's world, and he admired Noct and what he wanted to do, and tbh he was even a little jealous of Noct's companions and his hopes and his dreams, because Noct...was everything he could have hoped for in a ruler himself.
But either way, it meant that he admired Noct and wanted to protect him, long before he asked Barnham to be his shield. He wanted to protect the promise that Noct was, in being a ruler who deserved the loyalty offered to him from the knights--it was important to him. And in the end, it was important to him for more reasons than that too. It was important to him because Noct was his friend, and someone he cared about, and it was important to him because Noct never killed anyone.
And that's something that is really important as to his thought process behind why he never told Noct. When Noct told him that he had a role as Bounty, if he'd said that he'd killed someone for that role, Barnham would have understood, but he also probably would've confessed. But in the end, even despite having a role like that, even still Noct never caved. Which meant that even more, Barnham wasn't going to allow him to dirty his hands. Despite having a role the entire time... Noct never caved to that level, and that was what decided it for Barnham 100%.
He was going to handle it himself, even if it meant breaking in the process. It would be worth it to protect the ideals that Noct represented--the sureity, the goodheartedness and the fact that in the end, Noct was a far better person than Barnham could ever have hoped to be. The least he could do was protect him.
SO THAT'S WHY.... he never would have told Noct the truth. He knew Noct would have wanted to help him, even if it meant dirtying his hands. But after Noct did everything he could to avoid that... there was no way Barnham could allow for it. The friendship and loyalty he feels for Noct is immense, and he honestly wanted to protect Noct most of all.
Because Noct understood him. He understood his moral values and what it meant to be a knight. He understood why Barnham was so tortured over everything, and he understood what Barnham's duty meant to him. Noct was a boy who had suffered too much over the course of his life, and Barnham wanted to support and protect him however much he could, despite their situation.
He admires Noct, and he appreciates him. He wants to protect him and he wants to give him advice when he falters. He knows that they're doomed to separate because they both have their duties, and that's fine--he'll hand the duty of protecting Noct over to his proper knights then, because that's their duty.
But they'll always be friends.
And he'll always treasure that. He may have broken a lot over the course of this game, but he'll never regret protecting Noct. And he doesn't even regret killing Noct because he knows he was able to protect him and remove him from the game that way. He just regrets that he let it get to the point where Noct despaired before he was strong enough to do it.
But he still believes in Noct--in everything that Noct has told him, and in everything Noct wants to accomplish. And that's something he won't ever lose belief in.
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ANYWAY.
Barnham and Noct......
I guess I'll start with--Noct is the absolute last person Barnham would have told the win condition to without killing him after aside from like... Ash or Hannibal. Because Noctis is the person that Barnham wanted to protect most of all from that. From the moment they met, Noct was impressing Barnham with his strong sense of morals and beliefs, and that only got all the more impressive to him when he realized that Noct was to be a king. Because Barnham has seen negative, corrupt people in power firsthand. He was thrown into jail for treason for trying to find the truth, and when he heard Noct talk about everything he believed in... it gave Barnham hope.
It gave him hope for a world that he didn't even have a part in, which was a strange feeling as it was, but it truly did. He hoped for Noct, and Noct's world, and he admired Noct and what he wanted to do, and tbh he was even a little jealous of Noct's companions and his hopes and his dreams, because Noct...was everything he could have hoped for in a ruler himself.
But either way, it meant that he admired Noct and wanted to protect him, long before he asked Barnham to be his shield. He wanted to protect the promise that Noct was, in being a ruler who deserved the loyalty offered to him from the knights--it was important to him. And in the end, it was important to him for more reasons than that too. It was important to him because Noct was his friend, and someone he cared about, and it was important to him because Noct never killed anyone.
And that's something that is really important as to his thought process behind why he never told Noct. When Noct told him that he had a role as Bounty, if he'd said that he'd killed someone for that role, Barnham would have understood, but he also probably would've confessed. But in the end, even despite having a role like that, even still Noct never caved. Which meant that even more, Barnham wasn't going to allow him to dirty his hands. Despite having a role the entire time... Noct never caved to that level, and that was what decided it for Barnham 100%.
He was going to handle it himself, even if it meant breaking in the process. It would be worth it to protect the ideals that Noct represented--the sureity, the goodheartedness and the fact that in the end, Noct was a far better person than Barnham could ever have hoped to be. The least he could do was protect him.
SO THAT'S WHY.... he never would have told Noct the truth. He knew Noct would have wanted to help him, even if it meant dirtying his hands. But after Noct did everything he could to avoid that... there was no way Barnham could allow for it. The friendship and loyalty he feels for Noct is immense, and he honestly wanted to protect Noct most of all.
Because Noct understood him. He understood his moral values and what it meant to be a knight. He understood why Barnham was so tortured over everything, and he understood what Barnham's duty meant to him. Noct was a boy who had suffered too much over the course of his life, and Barnham wanted to support and protect him however much he could, despite their situation.
He admires Noct, and he appreciates him. He wants to protect him and he wants to give him advice when he falters. He knows that they're doomed to separate because they both have their duties, and that's fine--he'll hand the duty of protecting Noct over to his proper knights then, because that's their duty.
But they'll always be friends.
And he'll always treasure that. He may have broken a lot over the course of this game, but he'll never regret protecting Noct. And he doesn't even regret killing Noct because he knows he was able to protect him and remove him from the game that way. He just regrets that he let it get to the point where Noct despaired before he was strong enough to do it.
But he still believes in Noct--in everything that Noct has told him, and in everything Noct wants to accomplish. And that's something he won't ever lose belief in.