tbh most of Shinnosuke's feelings on Barnham are just "eh"
Before the whole MURDER thing, Barnham was just a funny justice man. He was stiff, making him easy to tease, and he seemed morally upright, which meant that he could be a great sort of very depressing entertainment as this place eventually broke him, as Shinnosuke figured it would—he's been in enough murdergame-esque situations and seen enough good people in them to know that it ends in two ways: death or a downward spiral (or both).
(AND HE TURNED OUT TO BE RIGHT, SO. YEAH.)
It got weird whenever Barnham seemed to, like, actually worry about Shinnosuke's well-being (and I mean I summed up Shinnosuke's feelings on that pretty well—). Frankly, he was one of the few that openly addressed whether or not Shinnosuke was actually okay, let alone that early on—because yeah, uh, Shinnosuke was not always okay (case in point, week 3: YEAH I'M FINE WHATEVER /promptly forms plan to break into a building with Jason out of frustration STILL FINE).
Which automatically meant NOPE NEVER DISCUSSING FEELINGS WITH BARNHAM. Not that Shinnosuke ever intends on discussing feelings with anyone, but the fact that Barnham actually expressed concern put him squarely in NOPE territory anyway. Get your emotions away from him???
BUT YEAH AND THEN BARNHAM MURDERED HIM.
Shinnosuke learned very promptly about the caveat from Sara, and then deduced from that that Barnham killed him and then got it confirmed by Hal, so. Instinctively, he's kind of salty, because, well. Barnham murdered him, and he didn't even have the dignity to even identify himself.
In the long run, though, he's really just eh. He knows why Barnham did it, he's been surrounded by too much death and betrayal to actively hold ill will against something that impersonal, and he can even give Barnham kudos for being ruthless and pragmatic, because the ruthless and pragmatic part of Shinnosuke approves.
(He does still kind of think the "not talking" thing, when you think about it, is stupid—either he was going to die and learn from Xion that Barnham was a killer anyway, or he was going to survive and tell everyone, which would make Barnham the worst killer ever for failing to kill a blind dude when he had every single advantage and in that case tbh you deserve to be doxxed for being such a failure.)
But overall it's really just "okay so he's a guy who likes justice and eventually decided to be an idiot and kill everyone for their own good without telling anyone," and he's seen enough stories like that to just feel "whatever" about it. He doesn't hold a grudge, but he also has no real sympathy for Barnham either. You made your choices (just as he chose not to die so easily), so suck it up.
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Before the whole MURDER thing, Barnham was just a funny justice man. He was stiff, making him easy to tease, and he seemed morally upright, which meant that he could be a great sort of very depressing entertainment as this place eventually broke him, as Shinnosuke figured it would—he's been in enough murdergame-esque situations and seen enough good people in them to know that it ends in two ways: death or a downward spiral (or both).
(AND HE TURNED OUT TO BE RIGHT, SO. YEAH.)
It got weird whenever Barnham seemed to, like, actually worry about Shinnosuke's well-being (and I mean I summed up Shinnosuke's feelings on that pretty well—). Frankly, he was one of the few that openly addressed whether or not Shinnosuke was actually okay, let alone that early on—because yeah, uh, Shinnosuke was not always okay (case in point, week 3: YEAH I'M FINE WHATEVER /promptly forms plan to break into a building with Jason out of frustration STILL FINE).
Which automatically meant NOPE NEVER DISCUSSING FEELINGS WITH BARNHAM. Not that Shinnosuke ever intends on discussing feelings with anyone, but the fact that Barnham actually expressed concern put him squarely in NOPE territory anyway. Get your emotions away from him???
BUT YEAH AND THEN BARNHAM MURDERED HIM.
Shinnosuke learned very promptly about the caveat from Sara, and then deduced from that that Barnham killed him and then got it confirmed by Hal, so. Instinctively, he's kind of salty, because, well. Barnham murdered him, and he didn't even have the dignity to even identify himself.
In the long run, though, he's really just eh. He knows why Barnham did it, he's been surrounded by too much death and betrayal to actively hold ill will against something that impersonal, and he can even give Barnham kudos for being ruthless and pragmatic, because the ruthless and pragmatic part of Shinnosuke approves.
(He does still kind of think the "not talking" thing, when you think about it, is stupid—either he was going to die and learn from Xion that Barnham was a killer anyway, or he was going to survive and tell everyone, which would make Barnham the worst killer ever for failing to kill a blind dude when he had every single advantage and in that case tbh you deserve to be doxxed for being such a failure.)
But overall it's really just "okay so he's a guy who likes justice and eventually decided to be an idiot and kill everyone for their own good without telling anyone," and he's seen enough stories like that to just feel "whatever" about it. He doesn't hold a grudge, but he also has no real sympathy for Barnham either. You made your choices (just as he chose not to die so easily), so suck it up.
SORRY BARNHAM HE'S A JERK